my roommate. well inevitably she read my last entry & inevitably it was misunderstood. ::sigh:: erin erin erin i wasn't dissing you, i was just lamenting on our different personalities & u have to admit that u complain about my mess almost constantly which i guess u have every right to or whatever. & anyway i think u are the only one who reads this besides me so yeah. I am actually happy to get a week off from everyone in the house & just the people of austin in general. Just like i go to school to get away from my parents, who i get along with fairly well but i just don't like people all that much. or maybe people don't like me, i tend to not lie to people which sorta pisses people off a lot. I say what's on my mind waaaaay too much, but at least you always know what i think of u which should count for something. this generally tends to make people hate me though, go figure. we've become a dishonest people & that sux hardcore- i wish sometimes that just one person would be honest about what they think. i often get chided b/c people think i gossip maliciously about people behind they're backs, but the thing is - i won't say anything about u behind ur back usually that i haven't already told u to ur face.

what can i say other than i use other people as free therapists ~ i ought to get something in return for listening to their problems.::sigh::^2

so i got to spend the day with my parents & my mom is leaving in about 5 hours ro go to rochester - she won't get back till after i leave. she may get a promotion that will put her in houston again & not all over the damn place. i feel so abandoned. i'm a whiney bitch what can i say. i actually have it pretty good but who cares.

my mom hinted at a saturn today oh yeah - i'll settle for a saturn 'stead of a mailbu - the main point being is i want a *car* not a *truck* trucks suck. i have like a 90% fatality rate if i'm hit on the driver's side.

tonight i had a pretty long conversation with leelu - which hasn't happened since like this summer, but i think he may have felt like i was angry or something but i was just ranting as normal. i miss my im conversations like in the old days.

this is long & rambling but it helped clear the mind...

~ciao~

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