::Control::
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::Celebrity::
Pocket Bishonen
my alter ego
sacred cave
recommend
82% untelligent

::Previously::
02/28/2007 - lj
12/07/2005 - moved.
07/20/2003 - legally gay 2
04/12/2003 - be my light in the gloom
04/07/2003 - the best entry i have ever written in my entire life

::Diaries::
abhorsen
Aeryn42
annericefan
arkham13
greschya
justchris
scathing words [john's blog]
larrielou
perceptions
rachelle-
solstice36
thatkiss
unclaimed
wandering41
whale-girl
dirty shirt designs
host
marilyn monroe ::?::
Seeing:
Hearing:
Saying:
::Links::
diaryreviews
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dreamreviews
fucklist
interview
oddgoogle
poti reviews
quoted
r-e-v-i-e-w
rudereviews

::Inner Demons::
winsomekitty
misskitty.scathing
new orleans pictures
dirtyshirt dezines
ask-alice
fat.girlie
niku_neko.lj





visitors
2001-04-13| 5:19 p.m.
apologies & explanations
The current mood of Nikolai at www.imood.com
sorry about this morning's entry...i was just a *little* upset. but all is better now. sorta.

this diaryring thing is so cool. it's getting me hits from random people! i love it! i guess that's its purpose but yeah...

Erin is such an exaggerator. it was a tiny tiny amount of glitter. & it looked cute. so nyah :P i don't even know why i bother linking to her when i talk about her in my entries ... it's not like she returns the favour.

*omg* i saw the cute boy at einstein bros again! i never mentioned it the first time cuz i hadn't slept in 3 days & i had passed out after getting home & i didn't remember till i saw again. so cute! speaking of cute, erin emailed the guy on girlboy & mentioned how i think he's cute & she gave him the wrong address :( for my diary. maybe it'll intrigue him & he'll search & search & search until he finds my diary :) riiiight. I'm not gonna sit around & wait for that to happen.

i wanted to cut again all this week. but i haven't. yet. every vein, nerve, muscle, skin cell on my body is screaming & all i can hear is "CUT" "SLICE". this is the first real test of my will since i resoluted( a word?) to stop cutting. so far so good.

ok now that i've depressed you all i'm off to go check my site meter compulsively ... er i mean get ready to go to the austin festival of dance.

~ciao~

p.s. check out all the diary rings i'm in!

before & after