"When you make love you're using up energy; and afterwards you feel happy and don't give a damn for anything. They can't bear you to feel like that. They want you to be bursting with energy all the time. All this marching up and down and cheering and waving flags is simply sex gone sour. If you're happy inside yourself, why should you get excited about Big Brother and all the Three-Year Plans and the Two Minutes Hate and all the rest of their bloody rot?"
That was very true, he thought. There was a direct, intimate connection between chastity and political orthodoxy. For how could the fear, the hatred, and the lunatic credulity which the Party needed in its members be kept at the right pitch except by bottling down some powerful instinct and using it as a driving force? The sex impulse was dangerous to the Party, and the Party had turned it to account.

i was doing some mental calculations and i came up with this...the average person starts experimenting sexually around say..14? and by the time they are my age have been screwing like bunnies for about 2 years or so. while all this sex was going on during my formative years i was going to church and participating in true love waits rallies(a don't have sex promise thing...Junior anti-sex league? what?) so i had my first real sexual experience (not counting like cheesey kissy makey out stuff) like oh last year...in may. so i figure that was my 15. so sexually i'm about 16 now. sux0r. oh well i have class at 12 and it's 445am. g'night.

nikolai is nervous...chinese is her first class.

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