and i could go on like that forever...

i've got this incredible feeling that you get when you think your entire world has gone to hell in a handbasket only you don't believe in hell and so you're just -fucked-...but what really happens is that everything is just a misunderstanding and the person you called the lying whore bitch earlier in the day is in reality not one. and add that to this weird tummy feeling you get from eating a tiger mart 'cajun' hot dog with mayo ketchup and relish, lemon heads, drinking a dr pepper and smoking a cigarette and you get this weird oogly feeling all inside, somewhat like watching the smurfs at 10am on the weekdays and 20 and a senior in college and everything is wonderful.

and if any of this makes sense i will be oh so horribly surprised. love me. i love you...

i'm reading...a book..this book...and so far i feel like i am reading my own thoughts as if someone with an actual eloquence with words has been listening in my head...only this book was written in the 30s...

i think i would have been a bohemian, because really...all you do need is love. where that love comes from is of your own choosing. i love myself. i am happy. i am also tired

nikolai dances a happy little dance for you all.

before & after