i seem to be coming down with something. again maybe thomas was right i have caught something over the internet ^_^ too much chatting and general geekiness. well at any rate i my gland lymph nodey things on the right side of my throat are being bitchy.

i found out last night that the non surgical treatment for gallstones is only for patients that have no calcium in their stones and the stones have to be smaller than 1 cm. and then you take the medicine for a year and then there's only a 30% success rate. so yes that means the surgery is definite. and i found out from my aunt that it has a 4-6 week recovery period in which i can't do any lifting. which rules out my plan to get a job waiting tables again. dammit. what can i do now? get a job corporate whoring? not likely. if anything i'll go buy some sidewalk chalk and do sidewalk art on the drag with the other drag rats for money. my art is a lot better than the cripe i've seen for sale there. ugh like levi the bad artist's art. but who am i to judge other people's art. i mean my favourite artists are dali and picasso. and i really like escher also. oh and of course my roommate michael. i like most of his art. although i think he'd rather do stuff for a comic book than just do regular art all day. eh enough about him this is my diary.

i really do need a job so that i can actually have money so that i can take guitar lessons so that betsy my guitar won't just sit in her case lonely all the time. i mean i can play one song. and that's only if i practice it. i can play a horse with no name by america. it has two chords. *two* sigh. i am so lame sometimes.

arkham13 wrote yesterday about a fantasy he had with a pale girl with really red cheeks. and it reminded me of the painting i did before thanksgiving of a pale blonde with extremely red cheeks. i was going to scan it up here but it's... well it's my art and i don't paint or draw like anyone else i know. i do disembodied heads on backgrounds that make no sense. i do extrememly stylized paintings that are almost sort of cubist. yet incredibly cartoonish. well maybe i will scan it today so you can understand what i mean. i have to go get ready for class now.

nikolai is going to read candide again.

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