i haven't packed yet. there isn't much to pack. i'm taking clothes and money. and my laptop maybe. i really need to email jenn(of diaryreviews) and tell her i will be awol til friday. but. sigh i don't wanna. i am afraid. she will probably get mad at me. eh. i will do it in the morning.

i have all my maps and directions and addresses. i have coupons. i have lists of things to buy. i have planned ahead. i am so set up to fail.

i'm sorry this entry is so disjointed. i am thinking a million things a minute.

i think i finally figured out what love is. it is that stage of liking and enjoying the other person's company that is past the lust, crush, and obsession stages. yep. thoughts? chris you are usually good about commenting on the important stuff. am i wrong? ...about the love thing... of course. love could always be like religion and be this personal uncatgorizable mass of greyareaness. yes, i know that made no sense. moving on.

oh shit, the printer just scared the hell out of me. note to self: do not be scared by the printer when you have just clicked the print button. sigh. i am a scaredy cat.

going now. i am not making sense and this entry is completely unsalvagable. i won't be back until FRIDAY. i know you will miss me. lots of love and kisses,
Nikolai

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