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::Previously::
02/28/2007 - lj
12/07/2005 - moved.
07/20/2003 - legally gay 2
04/12/2003 - be my light in the gloom
04/07/2003 - the best entry i have ever written in my entire life

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::Inner Demons::
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03/01/2002| 9:02 am
that's a lot of cock
The current mood of Nikolai at www.imood.com
there is a recurring theme in my life. pain. my body hurts me for no reason. my mind hurts me for no reason. i can't win. what did i do in a past life to get -this- kind of karma? i mean seriously. maybe i was this super enlightened monk in tibet and as a test of my enlightenment they made me a chubby white girl who is totally confused about everything and likes to squish bugs. i mean that would explain why i cry when i kill bugs.

we made my stir n bake brownies last night. i don't think that uh brownies work that well. either that or miriam didn't make them right. anyway moving on.

i think there are people who i don't want reading this diary, reading it. i may move. i will let everyone know if i do. well i will let the people i want to know where the possible next diary is.

miriam has used the fact that i write in this diary as an excuse to lie to me. she is only partially to blame though. a certain friend of hers we will call mark. mark is a dickhead. mark and mir have been seeing each other, but hiding their "relationship" because of the asshole ex roommate. i think that miriam thinks michael actually cares. -laughs-

i think it's funny when people who like to bounce from one relationship to another say they aren't going to do it...and then they do. funny funny funny.

erin is coming to visit today! yay! i am so excited. tomorrow we are going to san antonio and we're going to the zoo and and and we're going to take a picinic lunch. mark is coming with us though. le sigh. i will deal. i will have fun. erin and i will tell a million inside jokes and laugh and have fun. and mark and miriam will not get any of them and it will be the best revenge ever. yes i can have fun without you. muah.

i am going to go chat away with my secret seksey lover now. okay well maybe he's just an online friend who i flirt with lots and stuff. at any rate i go now.

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