hmm now i'm hiding in the library doing research to write this research proposal before i go meet with my TA during her office hours tomorrow. I don't like sleep anyway.

Speaking of sleep ~ I had this really awful nightmare last night, only it didn't stop when i woke up. I had a lot like this before & especially last semester. I always have dreams where a demon is taunting me & it will grab me. Well, last night he/she/it was sitting on my chest & i couldn't breathe & they were holding my mouth closed so i couldn't scream or say anything. They are really vivid & scary...did i mention how it doesn't go away when i wake up? so anyway - i was freaked cuz normally if i have a nightmare i can't go back to sleep, but this time i couldn't stay awake. & i kept trying to wake my roommate up b/c i was fucking scared. & like i said i couldn't say anything so i'd have to shake my head alot til eventually i could call out to her. but she didn't wake up so that sorta sucked. i think she was freaked out i tried to wake her up b/c i had a nightmare. oh well. eventually i got myself to wake up enough to make the nightmare go away long enough for me to fall back sleep.

that's all for now - i have to get to work.

~ciao~

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