i realized a couple weeks ago when i was reading some of the stuff i wrote in there this summer. about my "plan" where i was gonna pretend to kill myself so i wouldn't have to work for my uncle anymore. it's just stupid in hindsight. i didn't even think how i'd have ended up in a mental hospital...er scuse me an "acute crisis center" sigh. it's nice to be well-adjusted.

i've just been informed tomorrow is arbor day. woo hoo. let me control my excitement. (read with ben stein mental voice) i have a lot to do tomorrow. gotta get up early talk to my sortof for pretend boy. sigh. he used the word relationship & we haven't even been on a real just us date. does that count for anything?

i went to mojo's tonight ... not to be confused with momo's which i guess is some sort of music venue or momoko's which is a yummy japanese restaurant & bubble tea place. trust me i have to clarify read my guest book if you don't believe. i've never been to the momo's place but someone thought i meant momo's when i said i went to momoko's but they don't live in austin & they're an aggie so they're allowed to make mistakes. mojo's has great coffee. i ran into this girl i knew from high school. i haven't seen her in years. she helped in the warping of shanna. i was even more sweet & innocent just out of private school & all. the thing i remember about her the most? she taught me what poon tang is. i didn't say it was a happy memory.

i managed to forget to do lots of important things today. fuck me. ok i'm going to bed soon.

g'night

~Nikolai~

before & after