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10/19/2001| 6:59 pm the end of the beginning or not do you know what my life's ambition is for this diary? to get quoted. well maybe...that and acquire more than 15 readers. and ... and to have more than 10 people list me as a favourite diary. i think it has a lot to do with the content of my diary. that being that it's not that interesting or witty or interesting. i've been thinking the past few days, which in and of itself is already a bad bad bad horrible sign, but anywho, i've come to think of my diary as rather boring and well trite. i write about my day with an eloquence known only to the dullest of people. i can't delude myself into thinking that someone actually finds my life interesting... don't think i'm fishing for diary compliments because i'm not. in fact i think the only reason i get the hits i do is because someone out there is just really that bored or they used google and got here by accident. with the exception of maybe chris who i've seduced into worshipping me as the goddess i am regardless of how smarmy his ass his. anyway moving right along. i'm faced with a dilemma of sorts. i have a choice to stop writing in this diary what you normally see. what i did that day, how my roommates have pissed me off of late, etc. and write what i want to move towards. i want to move from a diary to a journal. my problem with that is i wouldn't want to keep up with the lies i've told some people who read this diary. i want to be completely honest and i think to do that i have to have a diary in which no one i know reads it and knows i'm writing it. which leads to my second choice. to start another diary and not tell anyone the new address. to write a diary...journal simply for my benefit. the problem with that is obvious. multiple diaries are a pain in the ass. well, we'll see what happens. i'll make up my mind soon. |