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02/28/2007 - lj
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07/20/2003 - legally gay 2
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04/07/2003 - the best entry i have ever written in my entire life

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06/11/2002| 3:22 am
where i am sad
The current mood of Nikolai at www.imood.com
ugh i finally succumbed to the pressure. take my friend test i expect you all to make 100. hehe maybe i'm just kidding.

i went dumpster diving again. i found a pound puppy! i mean, a pound puppy! how cool is that. we found other stuff, but i'll leave it out for now.

i told my mom i was on academic probation, and that sucked. I didn't want her to know because i knew she'd be "disappointed". and she was. and it was just as horrible and awful as i thought it'd be ... if not worse. i want to talk to my mom but i don't want to call for a couple days. my family thinks i'm this wonderful responsible intelligent little girl, and i'm not. oh well.

i haven't been updating lately because i haven't felt like writing. i sort of have a date thing on saturday. i'll let you know how that goes.

oh and apparently sunday is father's day. oops. so i'll be in houston this weekend. just so i can have lots of unhappiness and yelling i'm sure. :-/ i should not dread going home to visit my family, but i do right now.

fuck i need a job. fuck i need someone that cares about me. fuck i need love.

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