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12/11/2001| 12:16 am my response and assorted ramblings i'm sorry. i was insane last night. i wrote 6 rambling pages in my journal even. journal being the paper thing that lots of people can't read. i don't really know what happened. i just sort of snapped. i think it unlocked my repressed feelings box in my brain, which in turn wreaked havoc upon my neural pathways therefore causing temporary crazy insaneness. you know what. i guess my little what do you fear entry really doesn't show the amount of crazy i was last night. i stayed up until 4 am talking to my roommate. and listening to his portishead cd after that. but it wasn't really what i did so much as the fact that my brain was all fuzzy and i was fighting back irrational tears. i wasn't even sad. i just wanted...needed to cry. but you know what. all this is curable by lotsa sleep. mir and michael had a huge fight today. followed by making up directly afterwards. i'll leave the details out but. it was. BAD. very very BAD. i went up to the art building to help him finish his prints for his intaglio class. remind me never to do that again. i had no idea what i was getting into. but i got dinner and a dr pepper out of it. on the downside i now smell like a mixture of kerosene, tar, methanol, and printing ink. yum. i think i should have left the shower for after we got home. something you should do when bored: put on old american cartoons, mute it, and put on music. laugh at how well random cartoons and music go together. and now for the stunning comclusion: and that's that. nikolai is tired and dizzy from all the chemicals |