my crush at work gave me an origami rose. i haven't even tried to seduce him yet. he's a sweet sweet boy - unlike some guys i know. anyway. work is okay.

oh wow. got lost in thought there. that was weird.

i finished memoirs of a geisha. it was a good book. i liked it. it wasn't a masterpiece or anything but it was better than pulp fiction. somewhere in between i'd say. i had my computer off for a couple days cause i got pissed at it & i wanted to finish the book. i'm so tired too cuz i haven't been going to bed till 2 or 3 am so i could finish it. it's only 1030 & i'm struggling to stay awake. sigh.

did someone ever ask you to do something - not anything bad - just something normal you know. but for some reason you just couldn't do it. i have that problem. & then i'll convince myself to do it & then when they ask again i get nervous. cause deep down inside i super duper shy. & i end up saying no again. i think they'd have a lot more luck if they didn't ask beforehand. just make me do it. that will probably come off wrong to a couple people but i don't care. i know what i mean. i'm gonna go to sleep now cuz i'm exhausted.

nikolai loves you.

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