my leg is asleep.

i got a compliment from someone i never expected one from. that made it even better. *beams* it was really sweet of them. i'd give them a big hug for that, but they're in austin like everyone else i know (but suzanne). yes, you. thank you bunches :)

being at home is such a joy. *rolls eyes* today i got to hear from my dad about all my faults (alleged). today i am selfish, lazy, & stupid. yep. nearly cut cause i was feeling so loved. i just wanted to be held & cry. lots. but instead i gathered cutting supplies. didn't use them though. they're still on my bed where i left them. what a waste of a razor. :-/ cuz that's where i get my blades from - disposable razors. i'm really glad i didn't do anything stupid. it just occurred to me that i've never shared with a certain snoopy friend of mine that i cut. well i guess she'll know if she reads this. the important thing is i still haven't cut since october. & on that i'm off to bed - got lots of stuff to do tomorrow. sigh. going to sleep would be a lot funner (er, happier) with a warm body besides my own in my bed.

nikolai is sad.

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