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2001-06-13| 3:15 p.m.
chaos.
The current mood of Nikolai at www.imood.com
sigh. i say this a lot but i'm not really sure where to start...

I saw swordfish yesterday. rocks. hugh jackman is H-O-T.

a friend of mine told me i think too much. he's prolly right. i think all the time. even when i'm reading a book - i think about other books in the series(if there are any) and what's happening to the characters & how their character is developing. a million different thoughts go through my head at any given point in a day. my latest wondering is the chaos theory. for those of you who aren't enlightened about the chaos theory - watch jurassic park ;) heh. ok so a brief rundown is every thing that happens no matter how small can set off a chain reaction that causes something else to happen far away. an example: a butterfly flaps its wings in say...L.A. causing pollen to stir which gets caught in the air etc, etc, causing someone in say... new york to sneeze. so here's my little version of the chaos theory. if my mom had never had her little mid-life crisis, we'd have never moved from spring branch. if we had never moved from spring branch i'd have never gone to cy-falls. if i hadn't gone to cy-falls, i'd have never met heaven. if i hadn't met heaven i'd have never met stephanie. if i hadn't met stephanie - i'd have never met miriam. if i had never met miriam - i'd have never met michael. & i'd have never worked at pluckers. & never gone to mojo's would never have met they might be giants. never would have seen tom petty in concert. never would have gotten butt ass drunk on rum. never would have started cutting. never would have smoked pot. well you get the picture. i'd be a totally different person. yes i really do think about stuff like this. ALL THE TIME. it's sort of scary really. especially when i do it while i'm driving. i start thinking about something & i just blank out. i mean i keep driving & stuff but i'll drive like 5 - 10 miles & wouldn't be able to tell you about anything on the road. i call it screen saver mode. heh ;)

ooh i took another personality test. scored 39 out of 60+ (too high or too low is bad) so here's what it supposedly says about me:
Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest... Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

right so i'm tired of typing now. ~ciao~

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