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::Previously::
02/28/2007 - lj
12/07/2005 - moved.
07/20/2003 - legally gay 2
04/12/2003 - be my light in the gloom
04/07/2003 - the best entry i have ever written in my entire life

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01/07/2003| 1:08 pm
don't you feel so let down?
The current mood of Nikolai at www.imood.com
i think i'm finally growing up a bit. no longer held back by those who refuse to. still, it doesn't mean i'll ever lose the child within, if that makes sense.

things didn't quite work out as i originally planned, but it's okay. i'm getting on with life. taking everything one day at a time. meditation is teaching me patience, and i think more will come after that.

i apologize for going a month after writing an entry where i said i would update more often. if you really feel you are missing something - i update my livejournal way too much. but this time i really am going to try and stick to my little creation.

please, if i don't update - yell at me.

i am still having a mini vacation at my parents' house. i needed a little stability. i will go back to austin this week though. i'm a little sad to leave, but thrilled to get back to my apartment...even if i don't have mtv2. although i honestly have hardly watched any while i've been here.

i think i'll wrap this up. i wanna go grab a bite to eat and return some stuff i got for xmas.

before & after