people take me too seriously. if i had a dollar for everytime i was serious - i'd be very poor. :P now if i had a dollar for every time i was joking & someone thought i was being serious & got all mad & shit - then i'd be a very *very* rich woman. is is that hard to tell when i'm joking. good lord.i mean i haven't really had any problems with this lately but it's just people seem to think i'm some violent angry person but i'm not serious when i say i'm gonna kick someone ass for whatever it is they deserve an ass kicking for. i'm prolly the least violent person ever. i've been in one fight in my entire life with someone who wasn't my family & i was 13! thirteen people. i'm not gonna do a damn thing. this guy at work jokes around a lot but i think he thinks i'm going to beat him severly or something - i dunno. whatever. shanna=not violent. i don't like violent gory things. i mean i can look at crime scene photos & stuff & not be grossed out but when i see it happening i immediately feel the need to puke. like i watched cast away & there's this one scene where he pulls his own tooth sort of. yeah that was an instantaneous wave of nausea.

i bought the book memoirs of a geisha - it's supposed to be quite good. why do i buy more books when i haven't even read the ones i already have? i think i have bookaphilia or something. i'm a bookomaniac. :P heh i'm joking.

the amount of lotion i put on my hands is inversely proportionate to the level of dry my hands feel. why? maybe i should just slather my hands with butter & then wrap them in saran wrap for an hour or so. okay that is definitely a joke.

why won't dland chat work? *kicks the chat server* piece of junk.

did you ever miss someone you totally never expected to miss. do you find yourself secretly wishing they'd call even though they prolly don't have your number. do you ever just want to be near them just to feel the heat from them & smell their particular smell. no? me neither. heh.

work sucks. the end. i hear thin h line the greatest online comic ever is dead & gone. i'm heartbroken. seriously. i read it all the damn time. of course it took me 2 months to figure out it had died. *salutes thin h line & it's creator clay* i'll miss you. & on that note i'm gonna jet.

Nikolai is barely retaining sanity. love me.

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